I'm just going to keep shouting at the sky about how much I miss you and I hate you for doing this and I wish you'd come home and fill those spaces in my life

He would tell me I can do this. He would say I'm stronger than I think. He would tell me it'll end and I'll have made it through before I know it. But he's not here to say any of that. He has no idea what kind of hell this is.

i love you and i wwant you back so bad

Jay wanted to know how Elliot wordsandshadows is doing and I didn't have an answer.

I want to be happy. I want to be excited about becoming a father. We talked about this for a long time and now that we're finally having a baby together, I can't get engaged. I've seen my daugter's heart beat and it's a struggle to be interesetd. All I'm doing is bringing Chris down with me. She should be happy but she can't when she's stuck ( Read more... )

I'm so tired, I don't even care. N and JM aren't home yet and the guys downstairs... First of all, a police officer was here looking for N. He told me the guys downstairs are claiming N tried to "rough them up", so he's being charged with assault. ASSAULT. And second, as if there needs to be more, they're being loud again so I can't sleep. I ( Read more... )

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NOPE

I just got back from signing a lease on an apartment.  I ended up using some money from the fund Gina set up because I need to be able to start moving in now even though my current lease isn't up until June 30th.  I had to fork over first, last, and security for the new place plus I'll be paying June's rent on my current place.  At least this gives ( Read more... )

Four weeks from now, I'll have my heart back.